maybe tomorrow i’ll find my way home

it’s not me, it can’t be. it’s not you.

i could do without this sudden feeling of uneasiness at 2:47am. Avatar was amazing yet traumatising at some parts of the movie cause some of them depicts bestiality which was down right mind fucking. all these avatar kissing a human being is something i wouldn’t even want to imagine haha.

i don’t exactly celebrate Christmas but this year doesn’t feel christmasy at all. school’s starting next monday and i have two shows coming up for my band which is on the 30th of december and 12th of january. the band’s been on hiatus for far too long. i dunno how it’ll feel like performing together after so long.

anyway.. sometimes, i do miss the life i had last time. everyone’s different now, people change, I change. i think it’s my 195815th time saying it but never said enough. i dunno why i’m drinking coffee now cause i actually do need sleep. i dunno what to do tomorrow but i do want to head out and enjoy the last bit of my holidays cause i’m pretty sure when school re-opens, i’ll be going through hell for se7en weeks.

and as much as i love being alone at home, i don’t want my parents to shift. i don’t want my parents to migrate. but if it’s for the best, then i can’t do anything about it. thinking about the future gives me fuckin’ goosebumps. cause the future is uncertain. my father’s retiring soon and it’s scaring the shit out of me to be honest. but let’s just hope for the best.

stay gold

meet me in montauk

it’s nice to know that you think of me before you sleep (sometimes). and what do you do when pick the storm or the shore but both brings you to the floor?

because it seems that every where i go these little black clouds seems to be following me around. and i just need that moment.

i want to walk around without the weight of the world on my shoulders. i want to walk around knowing that trouble doesn’t follow with every foot step i take.

is it you or me?

you, me and the things unsaid

im in singapore, back home, living room, on the lazy couch. awesome weather today. it was raining from malaysia all the way till sengkang. okay not exactly but.. haha.

feels good to be home. the past four days spent at kl wasn’t that bad after all. eye candies were every fuckin’ where and i got my jeans and my shoes (which needs a lot of trashing cause it’s too white and clean even though it’s not exactly white). Danish’s birthday feast tomorrow and i’ve yet to get him a birthday present. i haven’t gotten him one since his 1st birthday.

planning to go to town to get my basic tshirts with them pockets and then to toys r us to get danish’s presents or something. but the problem is no one’s free except for zul but he’s going in the morning and morning seems.. err :\

~anyway i miss u like how a kid missed PR~

i’ll miss u

well it’s 12:32am and i’m still up and i have yet to start packing. i’m leaving home at 7 tomorrow and that’s fucked. friends came over the past three days and it was fucking fun and high while it lasted. thanks to all who came even though i have to mop the floor three times and vacuum the whole house cause it was in total mess, haha.

so right now i’m watching tv, drinking, alone. with three packs of three different cigarettes.and i just spilled half the drink on the floor and the fucking sofa so there goes my life. i don’t feel like packing or sleeping. let’s just hope that the trip really serves me well.

anyway, see you guys when i’m back. and i really dunno when i’ll be back, haha.

—-

on a different note.

i was hoping to see u before i leave tomorrow. pretty bummed now that i can’t see you before i leave. it’s okay though, rest well. get well soon and have fun watching Lenka tomorrow. <3.142

Oui

“.. it’s yours now. i don’t know why it works this way but from now on every girl that i meet will be meticulously compared to you. and unfortunately non of them will measure up with the false memory of what you and once ‘had’. now that you have my heart i’m pretty much an empty cavity inside. for a lack of a better term, heartless. I will now treat each woman i meet with a passive aggressive contentiousness that will ruin relationship after relationship for many years to come.”

i lost my touch in blogging, i guess. ha cause i really don’t know what to talk about here. my life is average at the moment (no pun intended).

it feels as though i’m living the life of a boring old fuck who does nothing else but to live life as it is waiting for my time to come cause it seems as though i’ve got nothing much to look forward to anymore. life seems to be more meaningful the past few weeks because i have school work to do.

i’m not complaining about the lack of school work cause i don’t exactly miss the life that revolves around school work. i just miss having something to do, something to occupy my mind. or maybe not. maybe it’s just a part of me is missing.

so who’s gonna save my soul?

MSTRKRFT – Heartbreaker

haha

happy birthday Sanchia,

ilu

why now